By sight, not by faith.

The title should be the opposite, but this represents how I have been feeling about you. To me, you are still pretty (looks only), but why do I constantly think nowadays, that I should not feel this way? I want to know a specific reason, so I need to ask you. I don't love you anymore, but I have to ask you.

Why did you do that?

This question has always been recurring in my mind. It was very unreasonable for you to do that, do you realise? I always feel that you were wrong at that moment. You've done something very wrong, which always pricks me a sense of guilt, even when I have not done anything wrong against you. Why the hell did you even say that, and reacted that way? Were you too young? Probably. You were way too younger than me. However, at the same time, I was young, too. Hence, that does not give you a luxury to reason why you made such bad remarks of me. It was not fair.

You've always reminded me of impartiality - a fairness, an equilibrium in this unfair society, where having this will be a utopia. Something that never exists, but what I wish to, is what you always reminded me. You humiliated me and gave me a sense of reality, after making that statement that was out of a logical sense. I talked about Miranda Warning last time in the Auburn Society to denote what you have done wrong, and what others around you have done wrong as well. This is a problem in our society, but at the Auburn Society, this is completely disallowed.

One thing to claim is that, you seem happy - very jubilant, indeed. You can't imagine how you hurt other people by coming up with your illogical, childish and ill-minded nonsense. When people trust you, you use it maliciously to hurt them, by not only backstabbing, but also by making others, who will go against people like me, to trust you temporarily. I am not saying that I am innocent. However, if badness has a weight, yours is much heavier than mine. I hope someday karma avenges you. Believing in Jesus Christ is the best humour I have heard from you, because you are not a true believer. Right after I witnessed your stupidity over your religion view, there was no reason for me to love you anymore.

Stay hungry. Stay foolish, such that Job's real meaning befalls on you wrongly, as you take it in a literal sense. Realise your callousness and stupidity as you grow older, and let me see if you can keep up with any word that you had said against me. Trust me for once - you will neither have matured thoughts in future, nor will you beg for apology from me, or others who mistrusted you. You are that kind of person. People don't change until they discover their flaws, and you will never succeed in doing so. I know your bad habits more than yourself.

Your sarcastic motto - by faith, not by sight - exactly represents how fake you are. Can you even answer that italicised question above?

Do you hate cockroaches?

I hate them. I really hate it when I see one of them at a kitchen or toilet, suddenly crawling up my leg without any warning and then even worse, when it flies with wings spread open.

You find them disgusting too, don't you?

However, what if I were a cockroach, trying to amuse a person? And then, it fails quite badly.

You see, life isn't really perfect - there are failures which you deserve because you did not try your best. Yet, there are some reasons why you could not try your best. Maybe there was something wrong with your relationship and you couldn't get it past your mind. You could not made up your mind because you were addicted to gaming and could not get out of that whirlpool of coaxing. Yes, things like these make you feel vulnerable, and start to think: "Why am I so bad in everything?"

Let me look at this matter with a cockroach's point of view.

I am a cockroach now. I was born in the sewage consuming this and that waste materials. I see so many awesome creatures up there in the limelight. Rats, cats, dogs, and then I see humans. Humans are the best creatures, are they? I search for the best path as I aspire to learn from them. I approach them with curiosity, trying to get a closer look, as I'm short-sighted. Then this person approaches me with a distorted look, fleeing away from me. Oh, I see.

Whenever I see a creature, I should be running away from it.

I try my best to run away, but my eyesight does not help me at all. Is it about something that I don't have? I have six legs and humans only have two legs. Why are they so agile? Oh, because they are big. I get pounced by a large item, and I feel extremely painful, but I still struggle to live by crawling up with my broken legs. And then, I try to fly - oh, broken wings. Now I wait for tissue paper to cover me and be part with the sewage once again, by going into that whirlpool of toilet bowl. My already bad vision gets even more blurry as I enter the water.

I tried my best to amuse someone very much but that person finds me the other way round. It was an abhorrence that the person found from me. People are born with strengths and weaknesses. I am born with strength of influencing other people with words, and with weakness of inability to influence myself with words I said. Basically meaning, I cannot keep my words. There is something very interesting about cockroach, and it is its longevity. Cockroaches are the creatures which reproduce rapidly and survive by coping with the surroundings. Living in dark places where you rarely visit, they consume matters which we rarely touch on.

My point is simple. Don't try your best to amuse a person, but do your best at what you are strong at. Look at that cockroach trying to be a human being. Yes, imitation is a good way to follow up, but copying every single movement will be a bad choice. There is no way cockroaches can live under light, nor suddenly grow big just like humans to run away faster with 6 legs. That doesn't happen in reality. We have to face it - failure is a failure, but do not be jealous of what other people are doing, and not follow their steps very closely that you lose your own colours. Life is not always full of happy episodes. It is indeed weird for you to find happiness and gratitude of life frequently in this society. You are failing and you do not know what to do? Let's wake up and face the reality. It's time to wake up. You are not a cockroach, but you can become one if you follow footsteps to failure.

Those who are proud of themselves and conceited over their strengths? Don't care about them! Just think of yourself in your own league, and try to imitate what they are doing, but not follow exactly what they are doing. You are different from them.

Welcome to Auburn Society!

I am very glad to meet all of you, even though I don't have any idea who you are and did not meet you at all. (Are you self-contradicting from the start?)

Some have already come here through my Twitter or Instagram profile, and if you realise that all the posts are gone, I would like to say, yes - you're correct. I deleted all the past posts because I wanted to restart my Blogger. Please understand my own opinion, as there was a personal issue that I raised.

For the Auburn Society, it is meant to be sounding similar to Urban Society, which is the world we are living in. For better understanding, here is the meaning of auburn:

adjective

1. 1.

   (of hair) of a reddish-brown colour.
2. 
   

Emma Stone's auburn hair. Stoning.

As you can see, auburn is a word used for hair. The reason why I say this Blogger is called auburn is not because I am trying to discriminate anyone. As I have said earlier, brown colour is something that is processed, something that seems wasteful, but in fact it is like rudimentary and essential form of our life.

For example, woods, soil and defecation that you do as your daily basis (please see a doctor if yours is red, not this Blogger!) are usually brown-shaded. They all contain one similarity - they are all from nature, and is natural to do such stuff.

These are important for our livelihood. Maybe except that s**t.

In Auburn Society, we become Bear Grylls.

I am just kidding. Personally, I don't have any experience of stepping into the forest and masticating a big, fat-grown, yellow caterpillar. The scene of it already disgusts me, I swear. 

"Rrrr!" Bear cried. 

The Auburn Society is ironic in a way it is titled, because what I am trying to convey is about our society in nature, whereas the meaning of the word urban means, pertaining to the city. (not Urban Dictionary!) In fact, our world is basically ironic in itself, as there are many mysteries, and a lot of crazy things happen globally. Something that does not make sense at all with a normal thinking - it happens.

Instead of looking at the problem directly, I believe that hearing for the opinions and voices from the people are more important, to build a strong and convergent society. In my opinion, this is the normal thing we can do, but most people cannot even do this. It is not because they lack intelligence, but lack their morals, and we, in Auburn Society, use our seventh sense - common sense.

In this Blogger, I will be covering things happening around me, which are superbly stupid, and sharing opinions through comments or Twitter are also possible for you. When I post anything that is related to you and you feel it, do share the Blogger link and even comment on it. I would appreciate to see your reactions.

I also established Lame Joke Corporation two years ago, which is stagnant and not updated at all. I promised that I would update it after learning Adobe Illustrator CS6, but I did not. I am really sorry for the procrastination (but for some, it is better, because lame jokes cause cancer, not cure cancer), but I will still learn Adobe Illustrator CS6 whenever I can.

The Auburn Society not only lets you informed about what is orbiting in the world and yourself, but your personal hobbies too! If you want me to do anything, please comment on the post as well. I will try to do something that is possible within my range. For me, I like origami and programming, so I will keep it updated!

Thank you so much for reading it until here. Please be a part of the Auburn Society, by saving this website as your Favourites and visiting the website often!

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